So I have yet to get to bed before 2am since Peter left. It is just impossible to unwind at night without him around it seems. I didn't realize what calm he brought until he wasn't here. So instead I find it impossible to shut down the endless list of things that need to get done, or what tomorrow holds, etc. Which in turns makes me tired in the morning making me not want to do anything on my list. It is a vicious cycle.
It is totally weird to watch movies by myself, to crawl into an empty bed, okay maybe not empty, I have been letting the kids sleep in our bed temporarily. But the house just isn't the same without Peter, which is the way it should be I guess. An integral part of our house is gone and without him there is a hole.
Ican't wait to spend lots of money on plane tickets to Germany when he comes home next year. But until then, we make the most of some really great mommy and kids time!
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