But during this time (since early October actually) Peter has been away at OBC (Officer Training) in San Antonio, Texas. It is December 1st and it feels like he left ages ago and I just miss him terribly today more than any other day thus far. Doing life everyday without him is like trying to ride a bike with no hands - doable but not as easy, the balance has to be just right or you will crash. I know what you are thinking that it comes with the military life you chose, but it still doesn't make it any easier. I know that our time apart is almost over for now (2 1/2 more weeks to go), but in truth, this seperation has served as a reminder that we no longer have control over when he is home or when he is gone and I have to be totally honest, the thought of him being gone for a year scares the s*** out of me, excuse my french. I just am not sure what it would be like to lieterally lose a year of his life intertwined daily with mine. I know that it is going to happen at some point (in a very etherial manner of speaking), and I know that we will make it through it, but I still won't like it (like any one does, right!).
And Babe, if you are reading this, I want you to know that loving you is what is right with my world. Knowing that just me alone is enough for you is a gift greater than you can imagine for my heart. As time has passed from February my heart has healed, our relationship has blossomed again, but the day I read the note you wrote me in the field saying my love for you was the most valuable in this life was the day I truly came to believe you, not just in my head but in my heart completely as well. I love you, I always have, and I always will whether we are next to each other on the couch or thousands of miles apart, my love for you is unceasing and the love I get in return from you is priceless to my heart and soul.
Okay so that was longer than I anticipated it would be, but nonetheless there it is, my heart overflow for the night.
2 comments:
Yay, another blog! Maybe I should follow your lead and BLOG again too!
I can't imagine what you're going through! 2.5 weeks will go by fast and he'll be home just in time for Christmas! It sure does make you cherish the time you have together even more.
Military life can be difficult because of the long breaks. I hope that you're able to connect with some other families locally as that will provide some solace and support!
You should! And by the way, I loved your dress and jacket comment, so cute, I have to say I am jealous! I so want to learn to sew.
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